school pt.2

school

surfing

i've been surfing a lot this winter. i'm glad too, i've been fighting a lot of depression this year. surfing has an effect on me that is insanely hard to describe. i guess you could simply call it a coping mechanism. but, i feel there's so much more to it. it's definitely spiritual in a sense. something happens when your attention is completely focused on something other than you, your problems, and how tuff life gets. Every time i paddle out i think of a verse in the bible, Amos 4:13, and it says that God reveals his thoughts to man and some other rad stuff. when i surf, this happens, it kinda has to, cause God says it will.

disconnected

if you've spent any significant amount of time with me you've heard me talk about feeling disconnected from people. the response i seem to get is usually, "how buddy? what do you mean?"

to be honest, i don't know what i mean. there's a failure to communicate. there's so much i want to tell people but i can't say it with words.

i really want to address that "how buddy?" question, and after a long discussion with a close friend Shane Stoltzfus about this i came to the understanding that...

I feel like I can't fully express myself without art and punk rock, and people that won't accept those things are closing the door on me as well.

i will continue to write about this problem, maybe i'll find some clarity.